WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU CAN'T SLEEP?

So I am at that point in the pregnancy now that my heart burn is horrible, I get up about 1,000 times a night to pee, I can't get comfortable when I sleep......so here I am the second night in a row with insomnia.

It does not help either that my mind has decided to start fretting about EVERYTHING.  No really I mean everything.

Is this baby going to have a cleft palate?
How can we afford another one?
Are we ever going to get out of debt?
Am I a good mom?
How can I teach my children to be neater/cleaner?
Will I ever become organized?
Should I stop blogging?
I am too much of a negative person?
Why has Jeff stuck with me this long?
Am I really beautiful to him or does he say that to make me feel good?
Will I ever be under 200 pounds again?
How do my friends have the confidence to sell their crafts but I don't?
Could I sell what I make and help pay bills?
Do I need to find a job?
I need to learn to cook..
Should I start menu planning?

So I think you get the idea.  When my mind starts thinking like this I get super duper mad at Jeff because he is laying next to me snoring, sweating, drooling, dreaming.  ME I am flipping and flopping wishing to go back to sleep.

So tonight instead of laying there I decided to get up.  However I cannot do much because I do not want to wake up the family. I would love to turn on a movie and sew, but my sewing machine is in our loft right between our bedroom and the girls bedroom and if I shut doors the rooms get super hot or I end up waking up one of the kids or Jeff will ask me what is wrong and tell me to go back to bed.

One of my biggest eye sores in my house is my desk.  I have stacks of papers, bills, things to scan, boxes of stuff stacked next to it.  So here I sit, working on simplifying my e-mail in box, scanning receipts, bills etc, sorting out bills, and generally working on my desk.

So when the sandman decides your done sleeping at 3 in the morning.  What do you do?

Time Fly's

NOTICING A TREND.....

I like to be late with posting my ORT

http://itsdaffycat.blogspot.com/2013/12/the-totally-useless-stitch-long-2014.html

So once again, I am late. 

I have been doing a lot of.....well......Not sure what I have been doing a lot of lately other than getting my kids on and off the school bus, changing poopy diapers, running errands and being pregnant.  

I am way behind on stitchings and quilt projects, but what is new.

My baby is 10 months old and I still have her birth announcement to finish.  I have not even started looking for a new birth announcement for my baby that will be born in about 9 weeks.  Little lone an awesome idea for Christmas for my in-laws.

All well some progress is better than nothing.....so even though I am late here is my jar.....

This is more from sewing and finishing up a started sewing projects than it is from stitching.
But it does show progress that I my Ph.D's (Projects half done) are getting done.

So I guess like always it is better late than never and I hope that I am not penalized......Tee Hee.

September Was Very Useless

http://itsdaffycat.blogspot.com/2013/12/the-totally-useless-stitch-long-2014.html

So all summer I have not done an ounce of stitching.  Why?  Because we have moved and all my stitching stuff is still in a box, someplace in this house.  I have also been exhausted and unmotivated with how much is going on and everything that needs my attention.  I fall into bed at 10 ish and I am asleep at 9:59 ish.

Life has been a whirlwind, but we are finally falling into a routine, I think.  My 2 older girls are in school and having fun, my baby is growing like a weed, and baby #4 is due in January, and I have been trying to get everything switched from one state to another state, as well as cleaning out our clutter and stuff.

So my picture this month is......well non existent.  Hopefully next month is better.

I Have not Fallen Off......

.....the face of the Earth....or have I.  It is amazing at how much change can consume you.  Trying to find a new balance, a new routine, a new way of life......EVERYTHING CHANGES....

I will admit I have been a little bit stressed over all the changes that have taken place, but at the same time I have had a sense of peace.  Something I have not felt in a long time.  I still have my worries, I still have my stresses, but it seems like since we have moved, I have hope for the first time in a long time.  I have hope that we will get finances under control, I have hope that my kids will not fall through the cracks at school, I have hope that everything will be OK.

I am grateful for the opportunity that have been given to shake up our life, it has not been easy, but it has allowed me to re-evaluate who I am as a person, a mom, a wife, a daughter, a sister and as a daughter of God.  I have realized that I have a lot of wasted time, a lot of distractions, I have too much going on, but that I can only blame myself.  I have chosen to take to much on, I have chosen to spread myself thin with crafting projects, trying to be the perfect everything.

Just after Jorilynn was born I told a friend of mine I would make her daughter a weighted blanket before she left for college.  The months flew by faster that I expected and every night I would go to bed feeling guilty that I had not started the blanket for her, that my house was a mess, I had several started projects.......So just before we moved I told her that I was felt bad, but there was no way I was going to get it done.  My friend totally understood and at first I felt horrible.  But soon after I felt better a weight had been lifted.

This one experience made me realize that I have too much going on.  Sure there are those moms out there that have 15 kids and they cook meals everyday, their house is clean......ETC....They are super moms or are they.  I am not a super mom, and I a learning that.  So as I have been getting rid of stuff, I have realized that I am me and that I need to be the best me I can even if that means we have cold cereal for dinner 3 nights in a row.  I need to look at the big picture, which is my kids are healthy, they have food in their bellies, and we are all happy.

I can go on and on about my faults, a horrible house keeper, lazy, selfish, horrible wife, no self esteem, a lot of self doubt........but I am realizing that despite all these things I am a great person and that I am trying to be better.  Is that not what is asked of us.  To everyday live better than the day before.  For me that might mean something as simple as my kitchen stayed clean all day, or that I did not loose my temper at my daughters.  It does not matter what I did today to be better than yesterday, but that I saw a short coming and that I did better.

We watched a movie the other night called "Mom's Night Out"  As we watched the movie I joked with Jeff that this is the reason why mom's never go out.  But during the movie there is a lot of truths about how we are all different, we all have our weaknesses, but we need to learn how to take a time out and give ourselves credit for the things we can do, and do do.

I wish I could be a better mom and wife, a better house keeper, a better daughter, that I did not complain so much.  I wish I was better at sewing, and being organized, better at not yelling at the kids, better at EVERYTHING.  But as I learn and observe my children I am reminded that I am doing a good job, that my kids love me, my husband loves me, that Heavenly Father loves me.  I have family I can count on, I have friends that are there to help me when I fall.  I have a husband that works hard to support us so I can stay at home, I have a husband that loves me even with all my short comings and he never complains and he encourages me and supports me to be a better person.  I have learned that I am 1 lucky person to be where I am today with the family that I have and the love that people show me daily.  I need to work on loving myself for who I am today...right now......this second.

Changes are taking place......

I have not blogged lately....I have not done much of anything lately other than well getting ready for some major changes that are taking place soon.

I have not been stitching, I have not been sewing, I have not been going out with friends that much.....

So are you wondering what the changes are yet? 

First of all during all these changes I have learned a few very wonderful lessons in life that as a mom and wife I feel like I should have learned a long time ago, however, through lack of faith, stubbornness or even lack of having to learn these lessons....I am just now learning them.

Jeff and I went on a wonderful family vacation to Salt Lake City and to Las Vegas. IT WAS HEAVEN!!!! It was something our family was in desperate need of.  Jeff was able to catch up with some friends, I was able to meet some of his family that I have not yet met.  But more importantly we just got away from life and played and had fun.  We came back feeling relaxed and ready to attack life again.

About 6 weeks or so before we left on vacation we found out we were expecting baby #4......(LIfe change #1).  We are excited, this was all planned.  We needed to get pregnant right away for the sake of our family.  

While on vacation life change #2 took place.  Jeff's friend owns his own business and while we were visiting his friend offered Jeff an amazing job.  Like one of those jobs that is too good to be true....Yeah AMAZING....Jeff and I were floored.  After many hours of discussion, praying, receiving blessings, we decided to take the job.  Since we took the job it is crazy how everything has fallen into place.

As soon as we got home we had an ultra sound and found out that baby #4 is going to be a boy.......AHHHH 3 girls and 1 boy are serious. A friend of mine has 3 boys and is having her first girl.....so we did some major clothes swapping....I love hand me downs.....

So lesson learned.  The Lord will answer your prayers in ways you did not expect, in a time you do not expect and in a manner that will open many doors.  Yes! I should know this, but I do not think I ever needed to learn that lesson like this until now.  

Jeff and I have been praying to find away to make more money, to move out of our apartment, provide a better life for our children, to no longer be stagnant, and to move on to something  new.  We were thinking more along the lines of Jeff getting a large raise at work, so we could move closer to his office.  We never thought in a million years it would be a job offer in a different state and out of the blue.

We have been blessed through this entire process.  We are excited to move to a new area and make new friends.....IT WILL BE GOOD!!!!

Look even Las Vegas is partying because we are coming!!!!

May Was Useless

Here is another month and not much has been added! I am making progress slowly but surely!  

Some progress is better than none though!

April - TUSAL/ORT

So I thought I was being awesome and that I was going to be on time with this post.....You know the phrase "A day late and a dollar short"?  Yeah well I am a day late with EVERYTHING.....Ok well maybe not really, but lately it sure does feel like that.

I thought I wrote a post last night from my iPad, but when I opened up my blog on my computer today I saw that I did not.  Maybe I fell asleep writing it?  I don't know...I am blond though.

Anyways, I did not get picture of things I am working on this time round just my jar.  I am still trying to figure out how other people get their jar so full so fast?  I can stitch a lot and I feel like I only get a few clippings in there while others seem to fill a jar a month?  Is it that you had the rest of the thread after doing a section?  I seem to save my thread as much as I can!!!! I JUST DON'T GETIT!!! All well...

I hope that we all have a wonderful MAY!!!