Tuesday, August 7, 2012


Lately my husband has been supporting me in loosing weight and getting my leg back in shape (I ruptured my Achilles tendon in December).  I walk roughly 1.2 miles a day.  For some that is the warm up, BUT there is a hill I walk up that is.....well torturous.  I mean really.  I walk my neighborhood two times so I walk this hill two times.  

While on my walk I passed a young girl that I know that was running with her dog.  Not jogging, not trotting, but running.  It started my thinking.  I have never been a particularly small person.  I am very German, very Viking which translates into a large frame and large muscles.  Although right now I am mostly fat.  But in high school when I was playing sports year round I had to wear men's jeans because my thighs and my butt were too big to fit into women's jeans.  

So anyways back to my thought process.  I was watching her run down the street and I was thinking....RUNNING IS EVIL.  I played soccer for 23 years, but running.  running to run is EVIL.  In high school the first hour of soccer practice was running.  I mean like...."OK girls go for your 45 minute run"  I dreaded it.  I HATED IT.  Swimming on the other hand.  Let me go swim laps for an hour and I would be a happy campier.  Than I started thinking.  WOW to have that much energy.  WOW to be back down to 170......(that's what I weighed when my husband and I started dating 6 years ago.  Six years later, 2 kids 13 months apart, and 3 surgeries later, I have gained almost 100 pounds.  HOW DEPRESSING!!!! What to do about?  I know I know eat healthier, work out, drink more water, be more active, join a gym.   Well in my perfect world I would have a gym membership, I would be a stay at home mom, I could cook and we would have a small work out room so while we watch our evening movie I can jump on the elliptical training and work out. HOWEVER, reality is I cannot cook, I am lucky to go pee by myself, and I feel like more often than not I run around like a chicken with my head cut off.  

I have been loosing weight slowly......LET ME STRESS SLOWLY.  According to my scale at home I was doing great and than I stood on the scale at the doctors office and I though "OK you added weights to the scale because my scale at home does not say that.......CRAP"....

To be truthful my weakness is that I love sweet things, I love drinking soda, and I do not enjoy eating.  I much rather snack all day long and drink soda.  I think water is gross, it is bland, and drinking it is a chore.  But the older I get the more I have noticed that I enjoy drinking ice cold water.  So I am slowly drinking more water.  My biggest fear in life is that I am gonna be one of those 380 pound women that cannot get out of bed.   AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.  

That was my thought process on my walk tonight. 

Monday, August 6, 2012

Have you ever stopped and really looked around?  I have been doing that lately as we are trying to find a more permanent place to live.  I have really taken in my surroundings.  Where I live now.  Neighborhoods that I want to live in.  But more importantly I have taken the time to look at my things.

I have noticed the older I get that the media tells us what we cannot live without.  We cannot live without the newest phone, the newest computers, the new game that is now in 3D, we cannot live without the pair of shoes that make us feel like we are running on clouds.  ETC.  I am sure I could go on and on about what we are told that we cannot live without.

I must be old fashioned or against change.  The other day my husband and I went to go "upgrade" his cell phone.  He has an old Verizon flip phone LG.  It still works he can make calls and receive calls.  He can text and take pictures and that is it.  He does not have a full keyboard so he has to hit each key numerous times to get the letter he wants.  He cannot surf the Internet he cannot post to Facebook, he cannot no do anything other than call.  People often laugh at us because his phone is about 10 years old, been through the wash a few times.  Took a swim in a swimming pool, been drooled on by kids, dropped on the cement, you name it his phone has endured and what I love. IT STILL WORKS....My sister and brother-in-law both have these fancy dancy phones that do almost anything you want.  I am surprised that they do not have the fold your laundry app on it yet. However, they have both gone through 3 or 4 phones in the last 2 years.  

So back to my story.  We were in Verizon and we told them we want a phone and they asked what we were looking for and I chimed in and said a phone.  And the guy chuckled and said we can help you so what kind of phone do you want?  Touch screen, i-phone, Droid based, etc.  I looked at him and said we want a phone.  He had that look like "DUH you idiot we have phones what phone".  After his look I reached in to my husbands pocket (he loves to wear carpenter pants so the pocket is on the side of his leg) and I said we want a phone as he looked down at the counter and he laughed and said "oh well they don't make that kind of phone anymore"  I said I know but that is the phone we want"

Needless to say we did not upgrade his phone.  But what made me laugh is that in order to upgrade a phone it seems like you must purchased a phone with a data package that allows you to surf the Internet, cook your dinner and clean your house.  What kills me is that they have these great phones, but you have to sign a 2 year contract, buy a data package, upgrade you current plan because every other week they decided they do not want to support on plan or another, and you have to pay local taxes, state taxes, federal taxes, a fee for this an activation fee, and changing your underwear fee and who knows what else, but hey they will get you going in a plant that only cost $69.99 plus your $39.99 data package plan plus all your taxes so when your bill shows up in the mail you discover you went over your gigabytes by 3, you talked 3 minutes to long, and you got that spam text from some company you never heard and now you have to take out a lone to pay your $150/month bill.  All because you want a new phone.  What happened to the good ol' Nokias?

Its not that I am against technology, but what happened to the simple days?  Before technology decided to rule our world? These advances were created to make our lives simpler, but I feel like it has made my life harder.  Once I get something figured out, it seems like a company made "improvements" which only causes me headaches because now I have to figure it out all over again.

My mom often tells me I was born in the wrong era.  The older I get I totally agree.  I should have been born in the 50's or 60's.............